Wednesday, October 10, 2007

honest





















everything i want to write about seems lame
or repetitious
or self righteous
or trying



i want to tell you how refreshing the tanya class was last night
and how it's so important to learn

but you know this already



i want to tell you what an awesome day it is today
and how the mountains near the valley are so clear

but how many times can i tell you about my day



i want to tell you about the mosaic lamp on my desk
the one that nina made me out of broken plates and plaster

but why would you care


......


i feel i've exhausted all my ideas and just keep coming back to the same thoughts
the same thoughts...
over and over and over and over again


it's not about you
it's not about you

it's all about you

get over yourself
get over yourself

happiness is a choice
go do something good
something good

it's all the aibishter
who do you think you are

you don't need to be right
nothings more foolish than your pride

swallow it

g
u
l
p

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

comments are really interesting sometimes
cuz i a way sometimes you might wanna write
i agree
or wow
or just ...
sometimes nothing

and then there are those comments like
i am always here for you
or something like dont feel bad about whatever

and although i may wanna say that i dont want it to sound like untrue
cuz

personally i am interested no matter how many times you are going to repeat something

i mean yeha
so how do you put up with me

but yeah




have an awesome wonderful lightfilled day
much love

Anonymous said...

the thought may be the same but the connections of what daily activity brought you to that thought,that is novel

soldier said...

is it raining in that picture?
i like the rain
i cant wait til it starts

i will just sit under it
i would for hours
water does something

it like washs everything away
starts anew

the sabra said...

"or trying"

its a killer

Mimi said...

oh chang

enough of this "its all about me" complaining that just prevents you from doing. lets not be overly humble. sheesh.

you're fine.

just write.

(says the girl who hasn't touched her blog in ages...what can I say? i just wish my reasons were as holy as yours...)

Cookie said...

b.t.t. repetition for me - bad, for you - good.

sub-0 you're a pal, whoever you are.

soldierettsky - :)

sabrasita - ezzactly

mim - you're right that we should just do good things regardless of the selfish reasons or benefit...

but i'm still a die hard idealist who wants more.

mah la'asot?

Cookie said...

p.s.
i was just having a poopy night.
NEVER post when you're having a poopy night.

p.p.s. please excuse inappropriate usage of inappropriate word.